We dropped the kids off and we were on our way, and immediately, we felt light and free. We chatted almost the entire way (2.5 hours) and caught up on things that were going on at his work and about the kids (ok we weren’t that light and free just yet…). We had no set plans when we were there except
dinner, so we just strolled around a little and hung out in our room. My husband spent some time in the horse racing room making bets on horses (his literal favorite thing to do) and I got ready for dinner. We both got dressed up and had an amazing dinner. The food was delicious. It was by far one of the tastiest meals we ever had and that is always important to my husband. He gets really
worked up if either of us don’t enjoy our meal. Thankfully, every bite was perfect!
Again we had great conversation and the connection that we have always had came right back up to the surface. It was so nice to talk without distractions or disruptions. To actually remember the end of my thought and complete a sentence is something I really took for granted before having children. Now I am lucky enough if I have any clear and conscious thoughts at all. But the most important part about the entire trip was that I remembered how much I love my man. Lately, things at home have been so chaotic and stressful and I often focus on what hasn’t happened at the house, or what he
hasn’t done (I guess you could call me a glass half empty kinda girl), but during our trip none of that was a concern. I could just focus on us. I definitely can admit that I take him for granted and don’t appreciate him enough. He does way more than most but I never give him the credit. I forgot that I need him, I rely on him, and I am in love with him. My heart definitely has a hole for where our quality time used to be. It’s been hurting for him lately and I haven’t really stopped to realize that. When we were dating I used to miss him just when he left the room. If I hadn’t seen him in a day or two I would experience loneliness like never before. Now I experience these feelings but we live together and its simply because we don’t make any time for one another hardly ever. It’s both of us that don’t stop to tap into one another. Things have been so crazy, we haven’t focused on how we are feeling through everything. I really hope this trip has taught us to check in with one another and to start sharing love between us more.
As we made the drive home I realized I was more tired than before but I didn’t care. It was worth every minute. I couldn’t have skipped all the way home on butterflies alone. And even still 3 days later and I am still floating….if I could only bottle this feeling forever and open it for a quick peek when times get tough again and we know they will. But hopefully by then it will be time to take another trip